Yay, some improvement.

Well, let me preface this weeks weight with this. I used to weigh at night, and after discussing it with a few people, it would be better to weigh in the mornings, as it would be more consistent. So with that in mind this weeks weight is : 282.4

Now I know that a lot of that is due to the different time, but the last two weeks I have been weighing a few mornings a week, just to see and it was usually around 285. So the 282 is a pretty good sign that I am still losing, regardless of the time I weigh. Next week will be the real test.

This weeks diet wasn't great, but not bad either. I did however, get Brian McCann's autograph, so that made it worthwhile.

Deep thoughts for the week. Lately I have been seeing shows on t.v. about people addicted to something (Intervention), or involved in something (Beyond Scared Straight) that blows my mind. I can't imagine doing something that so obviously hurts my family. The guy on intervention has his whole family there, daughter and son just pouring out their hearts and crying their eyes out. He gets mad, leaves and basically tells them to shove it. What is so great about alcohol that is better than family? Then on Beyond Scared Straight, these kids are out fighting, robbing, doing drugs, and just breaking their families hearts. I just don't understand how someone could so blatantly hurt their family like that. I say all that for this, while walking around my neighborhood, I have seen numerous broken bottles (of liquor or beer) and even other drug paraphernalia (it was already broken, if it wasn't I would have done that myself). It blows my mind, because I know that their are many of my students who live in this neighborhood as well. Everyday at work, I realize what these kids have to deal with, and I always think to myself  "How would I have turned out if I had to deal with what they do".  Would I chose to fight against it and make myself a better person than my surroundings, or would I just fall into the same traps that the people before me fell into?

I'm trying, seriously.

Ok, so this morning I weighed around 287ish, but as of right now (right after dinner) I am at the same as last week.

I am trying to make better choices for my meals, but it's just not working for me. I have very little motivation to change my eating habits, but way more motivation to actually exercise. I also had a few sodas this week, all diet though. My addiction to caffeine was to great.

I got some potential bad news about Lola this week. There is a really good chance she has cancer of the bladder. I should find out more details on Monday. But that stresses me out, she is my baby. So when I get stressed, I get lazy about eating. I guess you could say I am a bit of a comfort eater, part of it is I don't want to cook or worry about what I am eating when there is something on my mind. I just want to eat something that is good, easy and fast. The other side of that is that when I am stressed, I want to go exercise. The best I felt this weekend was after I went for my 30 minute walk. I wish this gym next to me would open, it would be nice to o lift weights as well.

Well, we will try the menu again and see how it goes. I found a few different Lean Cuisines to try.

Ugh, this week is going to be tough.

Just another boring week.

Well, so far this week I have done pretty well with walking and sticking to the menu. I have realized that I really don't like cooking, or really even know how. I have no idea how to cook stuff. I might need to goto a book store and really read through some cookbooks and see if I can find one that is made for people like me (people who only know how to put something frozen into some that heats it up).

I have noticed that when I weigh myself in the mornings I weigh a lot less, I mean significantly less. It's crazy.

So my dog has been sick for a while now with some bladder issue. This has been kinda stressful for me. I feel horrible for her because I can tell she isn't feeling well, and it's hard to know whats wrong because she can't talk to me or anything. She just had a fairly invasive test done to figure it out, so hopefully that will find the problem and we can take care of it. Based on these events, I don't know how parents handle babies that are sick. They can't communicate the problem and just keep crying, I would go insane.

Slow and steady

Weight for the week. 289.2 A loss of .8 lbs.

I felt great this week, thought for sure I would have lost more. Snowmageddon kinda slowed me down with the walking. Oh well, I did start my longer route yesterday, it felt good to go a little longer. I made a menu for the week as well, I think that will really help me to stop going out to eat. I feel like if I have it written down and planned I am a lot less likely to break away from it.

Something else I realized this week, it is crazy hard to cook for one. I feel like I am throwing money away. I buy food to cook, but since it is just me, I only cook a small portion of it. I know I could cook it all and freeze/refrigerate it, but I hate leftovers. I shall make a trip to the store tomorrow and really focus on finding a good meal to cook for myself.

I also need to make myself start eating salad.

Snowmageddeon and the Icepocalypse

Soooo, there has been a lot of snow and ice around this town. Kinda hinders the getting out exercising thing. I did, however get out and walk around every day, just not as much as I would have liked to. I have always had this insane desire to go out after a storm of any sort and see the damage (in this case, no real damage, just to see what all is completely covered with that white stuff). I remember vividly walking my neighborhood after Hurrican Opel (I think thats the one) when I was a kid. I wanted to see all the limbs everywhere, all the trees down in the woods behind my house, etc. The snow we had earlier this season, the first thing I wanted to do the next day was hop in the truck and see what was going on. So what did I do this time? After waiting for part of the day after it all fell, I headed out in the truck. This is one of the many reasons I will always have 4 wheel drive, I like to take these small adventures and want to be prepared for them. It was pretty crazy that first day, after that the ice showed up and kinda ruined everything. 4 tires spinning on ice is just as bad at 2, so I headed out on foot. Not the full walk by any means, but better than nothing I suppose. The next day, again on foot, headed to Chick-fil-A, just for an adventure. Yesterday, 2 trips to the school and back, again not the full length walk. We get to go back to work tomorrow, should be interesting. I am excited to hear about everyone's long break and see what they did to entertain themselves. In the time I did spend in the house, I cleaned up some, and hung the baseball display case my dad hand made for me for Christmas. Pops is pretty good with the woodworking, those of you who have taken the hour long tour of the shop have seen his work.

I realized today at the grocery store that I need to start making a menu of sorts for the week. I have realized that I aimlessly walk around the store, and buy stuff that sounds good to me at the time (I do my best to never go in there hungry). If I make a menu for the week then I will buy specific things and hopefully it will save me money on not eating out as much. So, not eating out means, less chance of me having a coke, and I should be eating better.

My Goals for the up coming week:
 Extend my walk by 10 minutes every day.
Develop a menu before I go shopping.

Ugh, back to work...

Well, the weight for the week is 290.0. Lost one pound, sounds good to me. If I lost one a week for the rest of the year, thats 50 pounds, and that would be my goal. I know in order to make that happen I have to make changes, but I am being optimistic

School started back this week, and after two weeks off, it was both good and bad. Bad because I have to wake up early again, I can't walk in the mornings, I am always really tired at the end of the day. Good because I am back on a routine, I love our students (always have something , intentionally or unintentionally, funny to say) and I have people at work who encourage me in this process.

The eating thing is still really tough. I am just so lazy about changing my diet.

I tried to come up with some elaborate metaphor for what's been going on in my head lately, but I couldn't. Life is crazy, good things happen, bad things happen, they all are important. Right now, I just feel like I am waiting for the next good thing to happen to me. I don't feel like I have had any exceptionally bad things happen lately, it's just there are some particular good things that I am waiting on.

Fatty might be dreaming...

Well, lets start with the weight: 291. Not bad after two weeks of being "off the wagon".

One thing is for sure, I feel better when I exercise daily. I have just been irritable at things over the last few days. I am looking forward to tomorrow morning and getting out and walking. It will feel good to get back to it. I am actually looking forward to getting back to work, as odd as that may seem. I'm watching Inception right now, so who knows, this may be a dream.

To all my family and friends, it was great getting to see you again. I loved every minute of being home, even my parents annoying with with constant weather updates or asking me where I have been, am going, coming back.

LET'S GET BACK ON TRACK!